Thursday, January 5, 2012
Results of the Amniocentesis
We found out a few days after Christmas from our genetic counselor, that little Esther does not have any further problems besides CDH and a left club foot. We believe this is a miracle knowing that it is pretty common to have other abnormalities with CDH babies. There was a 33% chance that she could have something else wrong with her. The last time we had spoke to the UW doctors, they had said I would hear from them in 7-9 days and I knew that would be right before the holidays hit. When they had not given me a call till a few days after the holiday, I feared that they just didn't want to share more tough news to us during the holiday. Praise the Lord everything came back clear and we have nothing to worry about for future babies too.
Jason and I are still doing great with the news. I try not to think about how hard it is going to be when that day comes for Esther to be born. I know it can leave me feeling discouraged and scared for what is ahead. Majority of the time, we do not dwell on any of it and have stayed focused on preparing for the race that is ahead of us. It feels as if Jason and I are preparing for a marathon (which we have done a few times) and we are just bracing ourselves for the unknown. We keep asking the Lord to show us what we need to do and learn for when that time comes. We want to be fully prepared spiritually, mentally and physically.
I went for my first run this last Saturday since finding out the tough news and felt the Lord speaking to me in so many ways. I will share that when we get closer to delivering the baby. Jason and I are both reading through a study on David right now and feel encouraged by 1st and 2nd Samuel. We both know that just because we are Christians does not guarantee that Esther will live or even live a good life. But we know that she will be a miracle in any outcome the Lord gives us. I will be honest though... it was tough during the holidays and being at Christmas church programs and seeing healthy children running around and wishing we had the same outcome from the get go. But, we are still okay with whatever the Lord brings from this.
Jason and I went to a regular doctor check up yesterday. They told me I have gained a little too much weight in the last 4 weeks. I had to remind them that we just came out of the holidays and I couldn't help that everyone from my neighbors to my family members kept giving us goodies. Also, it was hard for me during the last 4 weeks to be active. I wanted to spend as much time with friends and family during this hard time so I didn't have to be alone. I am also now stuck in the control booth at work which means almost 12 hrs of sitting on my butt. At least I don't work everyday of the week. But, I am now back to exercising and keeping healthy. The doctors want me to gain the least amount of weight needed to maintain a healthy natural delivery so the baby has more opportunity to do well from birth. Esther's heart is still pumping strong and sounding great. We go to another doctors apt in Seattle on January 17th. We will get a more in depth at look at the lungs and heart of Esther and will meet the team of surgeons among many other things.
Lastly, here is another video I found helpful and useful of another little girl that has the same thing as Esther. Thanks again for your love, support and prayers!!!!