Jason and I are still doing great with the news. I try not to think about how hard it is going to be when that day comes for Esther to be born. I know it can leave me feeling discouraged and scared for what is ahead. Majority of the time, we do not dwell on any of it and have stayed focused on preparing for the race that is ahead of us. It feels as if Jason and I are preparing for a marathon (which we have done a few times) and we are just bracing ourselves for the unknown. We keep asking the Lord to show us what we need to do and learn for when that time comes. We want to be fully prepared spiritually, mentally and physically.
I went for my first run this last Saturday since finding out the tough news and felt the Lord speaking to me in so many ways. I will share that when we get closer to delivering the baby. Jason and I are both reading through a study on David right now and feel encouraged by 1st and 2nd Samuel. We both know that just because we are Christians does not guarantee that Esther will live or even live a good life. But we know that she will be a miracle in any outcome the Lord gives us. I will be honest though... it was tough during the holidays and being at Christmas church programs and seeing healthy children running around and wishing we had the same outcome from the get go. But, we are still okay with whatever the Lord brings from this.
Jason and I went to a regular doctor check up yesterday. They told me I have gained a little too much weight in the last 4 weeks. I had to remind them that we just came out of the holidays and I couldn't help that everyone from my neighbors to my family members kept giving us goodies. Also, it was hard for me during the last 4 weeks to be active. I wanted to spend as much time with friends and family during this hard time so I didn't have to be alone. I am also now stuck in the control booth at work which means almost 12 hrs of sitting on my butt. At least I don't work everyday of the week. But, I am now back to exercising and keeping healthy. The doctors want me to gain the least amount of weight needed to maintain a healthy natural delivery so the baby has more opportunity to do well from birth. Esther's heart is still pumping strong and sounding great. We go to another doctors apt in Seattle on January 17th. We will get a more in depth at look at the lungs and heart of Esther and will meet the team of surgeons among many other things.
Lastly, here is another video I found helpful and useful of another little girl that has the same thing as Esther. Thanks again for your love, support and prayers!!!!
We pray for you guys daily and sweet Esther. Praying for your minds and hearts to be protected, that your focus would continue to be on the Lord and that he would give you the faith to trust him in these months of waiting to meet Esther. And that He would meet you in your fears and anxiety and calm your hearts and hold them so close to Himself.
ReplyDeleteThat video made me cry for that sweet baby, and your daughter too. Praise Praise Jesus that he loves his children more than we can ever fathom and that he has placed you guys where you are at and with access to great medical care that can help the fight for her life.
love you.
That is truly a miracle. Our son was one of the babies whose CDH was caused by a genetic abnormality which took a lot of the lifesaving techniques (such as ECMO) off the table. Our Benjamin did not make it because he was disqualified from many treatments. The fact that your Esther has a chance is HUGE and I am so happy to read this. Best of luck to you and your family!
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