Since surgery seemed to go over without issue and the days since have been relatively event free, I think we kinda let our guard down. We maybe stopped depending wholly on God and began to "lean on our own understanding".
There is such a valuable lesson we are learning. Staying diligent and allowing God to "be God" is the struggle. He shines through and it is blindingly bright, but so easy to turn our backs and look to ourselves. Proverbs speaks abundantly about "sluggards" and those that are "diligent". One worthless and wasting talent, the other prosperous and glorifying God. Sometimes that work is not physical, not witnessing to unbelievers or working in the church, but staying focused on giving up your life completely to God.
As for Esther this morning, I am comforted. One step at a time. Staff actually seemed a little more concerned with Rhonda and I this morning than the events to come with Esther. God's grace pours from them. The doctors now are planning for 12:30ish.